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I CRY INSIDE

Posted on June 10, 2013 by Judy

Crying inside accurately describes what happens when I hide my tears. I operate on that level more than I’d like to admit. I hide my pain, while inside I am screaming and crying. It has been quite difficult for me to release my feelings and very unhealthy. Continue reading →

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WITH ALL THIS PAIN, I CAN’T REMAIN – PART 1

Posted on May 26, 2013 by Judy

The title of this post is a line of lyrics from my song “The Unknown.” I have not shared that song yet because it is very personal and painful for me. The words “With all this pain, I can’t remain,” relates to three things in my life: my marriage, my eyesight and my feelings about grief. Continue reading →

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IT’S NO SECRET ANYMORE

Posted on March 20, 2013 by Judy

I see great value in what I am doing with my life and where I am going. I am unapologetic. I believe I am the richest woman in the world!
There is a wonderful line in one of my songs. It is, “I go to places that heal me.” That is what my life is about; I heal myself and hope to heal other people, too. Continue reading →

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FINDING MY VOICE – PART 2

Posted on March 13, 2013 by Judy

For most of my life, I have suppressed most of my feelings. From the time I was young, I never felt safe expressing anger and preferred instead to shove it away deep inside. Also, since ending my marriage I have been numb with guilt. My inner voice encouraged me to sing because singing is actually a perfect metaphor for freeing myself. I could not achieve the vocal results I wanted, because I was afraid to sing loudly. It felt risky for me and I did not like to hear what I perceived as a harsh tone. It led to breathiness overall – I believed that it was prettier. Continue reading →