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WITH ALL THIS PAIN, I CAN’T REMAIN – PART 1

The title of this post is a line of lyrics from my song “The Unknown.” I have not shared that song yet because it is very personal and painful for me. The words “With all this pain, I can’t remain,” relates to three things in my life: my marriage, my eyesight and my feelings about grief. Continue reading

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MY DREAM – PART 1

It was the weekend before the 4th of July when I finally found the courage to tell my husband that our marriage was over. He was shocked, as I knew he would be. I found it interesting that he did not see it coming, considering how distant we were from each other. When I mentioned that, he admitted that he accepted the situation because, and these were his words: “Change is hard.” Continue reading

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MUSIC RESCUED MY SOUL

I felt painful thoughts buzzing like a swarm of bees in my mind. My song delicately erased the noise. Gradually, I felt myself soothed and imagined I was floating upon beautiful clouds. Once again . . .my music saved me. Continue reading

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PAIN LEFT A HOLE

I have grappled with other forms of grief. I had surviving children with special needs, sick parents and currently I’m going through a divorce. When I remember that I’ve had worse pain with the death of my son in the past, it minimizes my feelings and doesn’t give me permission to feel. It may be true that the loss of a child is THE WORST. But no one can truly know another persons’ pain. I want you to heal. Your pain is unbearable. It is worse than anyone else’s because no one else loved your son as you did. I look forward to the day when you’ll know that having THE WORST pain is over. It won’t be as horrible. Hang in there. Continue reading

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