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I KNOW YOU’D TELL ME

I called my dad in the afternoon and he sounded terrible, but he said I had woken him up and that was why. When his nurse called me around dinnertime she told me what I expected; he needed to go immediately to the hospital. She said he was close to death. Continue reading

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COMFORTED, CARESSED, HELD SECURELY

Calmness about the outcome was helpful; as it was when I took the chance that the rabbit might bite me. My teenagers often “bite me!” Sometimes fear gets in the way of doing things. I did not let fear “interfere” with following my heart to help that animal. It made me decide that the best outcomes in life happen with courage and determination to see a positive result. For so long I had blamed myself for not being able to save my child. I understand I cannot control outcomes, but I can control my attitude. With my writing and music I am following my heart and not allowing fear to deter me. It has taken tremendous courage for me to share my journey and all that has gone along with it. Continue reading

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EVERY SEASON YOU COME BACK TO ME-PART 1

It is momentous for me that I wrote a completely, new song last week. My song addresses my grief, which always reappears with my child’s approaching birthday and death day. After many years, I accept that my child is truly dead. However, I feel like he is still with me in a different way, and that gives me comfort. After many years, I cannot wait to wake up because I love my writing and my music. There are so many things I want to express. Continue reading

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I ALWAYS KNEW THAT I HAD YOU

I had focused so much on losing my mother incrementally to her dementia. Now I had my father to think about. The aching feeling in my heart spread like tentacles throughout my body. I wasn’t sure what the ache was about. I thought about what I would write.
Then I heard music playing and realized that the words I was searching for had already been written. I decided that my recent song “You Were There,” applied to my father as well.
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