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IT FEELS SO DARK – PART 3

I cannot bear to watch as she gurgles to breathe. It’s a horror. Today, I had to choose between morphine and an antibiotic. It was a hard decision. Continue reading

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I SEARCHED FOR A SMILE

I bent close to my mother’s face. I clutched her hands and they were soft and warm. It was just the two of us. But we were not really alone. I felt the presence of death and so did my mother. I put my head against her cheek and she slowly mouthed a kiss upon me. I began to cry. Continue reading

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DO NOT SUCCUMB – PART 1

The title for this story is a line of lyrics from my song “Hang On.” Here is how the word succumb fits into my lyrics: Though you are numb, do not succumb. Living with numbness was how I operated for decades. I did not allow myself to feel anything. Continue reading

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LOVE WILL GUIDE MY WAY

I knew this was your one-year anniversary and meant to write to you sooner. You made it through one year and that is a huge achievement. Each minute farther away from the amputation of your soul may be slow, torturous and imperceptible – but it is farther along. You will get there. You will always miss your son, but life won’t be filled with torture. Don’t give up hope. Continue reading

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