Author Archives: Judy

About Judy

I'm an illustrator by profession. At this juncture in my life, I am pursuing my dream of writing and composing music. Every day of my life is precious!

YOU HOLD ME UP SO I WON’T FALL

Posted on October 26, 2012 by Judy

Moving was so exhausting that it left every part of my body sore. Originally, I thought my post and writing would revolve around the experience of sleeping in my parents’ bed. I still had the rapid heartbeat in the darkness. As I lay there, I felt the thumping begin to settle down. A warm calmness enveloped me. It was so quiet and peaceful. Finally, my heart slowed down and beat softly, instead of pounding. It was all clear now. I was home. Continue reading →

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MY TRUE COMPANION

Posted on October 19, 2012 by Judy

As a writer, my mood and how I see things is very much affected by when I write. To actually write about feelings as events occur is extremely touching for me. I have raw emotions that I am certain other people could relate to. Writing something later on is completely different, because I am more detached. But while things are happening, sharing is my way of expressing myself with complete honesty instead of holding it in. For such a long time, I did not share my true feelings with anyone. Continue reading →

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I’M READY TO LIVE ON MY OWN – PART 1

Posted on October 15, 2012 by Judy

The light at the opening to my tunnel was blinding me. I had closed my eyes because they hurt. I finally stopped crying and gently wiped away my tears. I kept repeating three words over and over again. They were: temporary, adjust and accept. One day, my world would be filled with more songs than I could ever imagine. Gorgeous new melodies would accompany me through my life. Continue reading →

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IT FEELS SO DARK; THE SKY IS GRAY – PART 1

Posted on October 12, 2012 by Judy

I was reaching the end of my tunnel, but I was slightly discouraged. I had good vision, even if it was dark and pulsating with lots of shadows. I wished I hadn’t had a cortical chip as a complication, but I hoped it would go away. Because I had time on my hands (I was supposed to take it easy), I had the opportunity to update my blog. I decided to be creative and present a few images of the world as seen through my eyes. Continue reading →