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I KNOW YOU’D TELL ME

Posted on May 31, 2011 by Judy

I called my dad in the afternoon and he sounded terrible, but he said I had woken him up and that was why. When his nurse called me around dinnertime she told me what I expected; he needed to go immediately to the hospital. She said he was close to death. Continue reading →

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THERE’S SO MUCH FEAR

Posted on March 22, 2011 by Judy

My mother had attempted physical therapy last week. Because I am very aware of attitudes and outcomes, I found it very interesting to hear Miriam describe how it went to me. My mother walked several steps, but then she collapsed in terror. She was not in pain, but she was panicked and fearful. Miriam said, “The physical therapist kept emphasizing to your mother that it might hurt – so she was very afraid.” It turns out that my mother’s pain in her life is not her hip, her shoulder, or her back anymore. It is terror over her intense fear of the unknown.
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I ACHE AND WONDER WHERE YOU WENT

Posted on February 22, 2011 by Judy

Faintly, I heard a voice say, “Are you okay?” I was startled, but nodded, yes. My balloon was definitely on the ground now; it had come a long way down. I told myself that it was not my mother that had said those words to me. I knew that! My sadness was about not having my mother to cry to. I have missed her so very much!
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HOW I LIVED WITHOUT YOU

Posted on January 29, 2011 by Judy

All this week, a melancholy feeling enveloped me as the melody to my song; “You Were There” kept looping in my head. Although I was in the process of recording another song, the music invaded my soul. However, my sadness wasn’t just about my mother’s situation. An “anniversary of the heart” was approaching. The date of Cheryl’s death was February 1st, and it would be two years since she died of breast cancer. The title for this post comes from my song “Just a Tune,” which I wrote for Cheryl. Continue reading →