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NEVER GONE AWAY – PART TWO

I know that soon you will leave me
how will I ever say goodbye?
there’s so much you’ve left me
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HOW WILL I EVER SAY GOODBYE?

Every time I sang the words “How will I ever say goodbye?” I felt tears fill my eyes. My son’s death was something I had not consciously anticipated, though he was sickly with his heart defect. What would it have been like to be with my child knowing he would soon die? I could not imagine! I wrote to a mother last night. She was anticipating that soon her daughter’s suffering would end and she would be entering the black hole of grief. Continue reading

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I ACHE AND WONDER WHERE YOU WENT

Faintly, I heard a voice say, “Are you okay?” I was startled, but nodded, yes. My balloon was definitely on the ground now; it had come a long way down. I told myself that it was not my mother that had said those words to me. I knew that! My sadness was about not having my mother to cry to. I have missed her so very much!
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YOU WERE THERE-PART 1

Although I try, I just can’t say goodbye
to someone who’s loved me all of my life
I might be sad, and when you’re not there
I’ll still see your love everywhere
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WHEN I FEEL DESPAIR

I’m done taking breaks to pace myself. As I’ve learned, when you’re captain of the ship – you can’t afford to let anything drift. No one else really can steer. With a ship that is sailing into the storm, well, every moment counts. Sadly, I realize that my steering cannot really do much on a stormy sea. One day the sun will shine, and the sea will become calm. I’ll hold her hand tomorrow morning and we’ll have a nice talk.
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ILLUMINATING HEARTACHE

There was a lot of listening to do. She shared her anguish with a voice that did not reveal the true depth of her pain. The hospital insisted that her dying husband be released to her care tomorrow. She was not prepared. The hospital felt there was nothing more to do and she was responsible to set up hospice care; she needed to handle all those arrangements. She needed a hospital bed; she needed nurses. It was overwhelming. It was hard for her to deal with; she wanted him to stay in the hospital a little longer. Continue reading

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