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I ACHE AND WONDER WHERE YOU WENT

Faintly, I heard a voice say, “Are you okay?” I was startled, but nodded, yes. My balloon was definitely on the ground now; it had come a long way down. I told myself that it was not my mother that had said those words to me. I knew that! My sadness was about not having my mother to cry to. I have missed her so very much!
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IT MIGHT BE TOO LATE TO GIVE IT A TRY

It is not easy to hear comments and encounter attitudes that are 100% against my decision for my mother not to have hip surgery. I realize that I have an extraordinary ability to articulate my feelings. That is why I’ve decided that I want to accept the challenge of defending my position. I feel sad for anyone that is pressured to make decisions and cannot articulate their feelings!
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WHEN I FEEL DESPAIR

I’m done taking breaks to pace myself. As I’ve learned, when you’re captain of the ship – you can’t afford to let anything drift. No one else really can steer. With a ship that is sailing into the storm, well, every moment counts. Sadly, I realize that my steering cannot really do much on a stormy sea. One day the sun will shine, and the sea will become calm. I’ll hold her hand tomorrow morning and we’ll have a nice talk.
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HOW GRATEFUL I CAN BE

Perhaps my mother will soon be gone. Or maybe she’ll prove everyone wrong, and live another five years. I have no idea. I only know that tonight was glorious. Tonight I learned how grateful I could be.
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