Tag Archives: Friendship

JUDY OF THE FUTURE

It was 35 years ago. I can hear my teacher’s voice, and she is telling me that our assignment is to write a “stream of consciousness.” I remember I was quite silly. Sometimes, I would write nonsense to just fill up that white sheet of notebook paper. I enjoyed writing about all the boyfriends I was so fickle about. Often, I wrote to a version of my future self. I called her “Judy of the Future.”
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MY LIFE IS FULL

While going through some old albums, I came across some images I found funny. One time, my mother borrowed one of my dresses for an occasion. It was black and my youngest son would say it looked like a “Spider Woman” costume. I found a picture of my mom wearing it, and I swear I had to look closely to see if it were she or I! These photos are so cute, that I thought I’d share them.
There are times when I really miss the way my mother used to be. I could always share things with her, and she would offer me so much wisdom and comfort. Continue reading

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SOMEONE I NEVER DREAMED I’D FIND

Then I came across a long hand-written note from Cheryl. As I read it, I began to feel the familiar ache of grief. It was not only familiar; it was welcomed. She was with me the rest of the evening as I cried and cried. Now that my tears have returned, I am connected to life once again. Continue reading

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I’M NOT A POSTER CHILD ANYMORE

I don’t have to be a poster child anymore for bereaved parents! I don’t have to always be smiling, and I don’t have to prove to anyone that I’ve moved on. I can still cry and feel pain for not having my beautiful child to hold. I can still cry because I cannot see him grow up and have the life I thought he was entitled to. I may continue to cry for him when I am very old. Continue reading

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