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IT FEELS SO DARK; THE SKY IS GRAY – PART 1

Posted on October 12, 2012 by Judy

I was reaching the end of my tunnel, but I was slightly discouraged. I had good vision, even if it was dark and pulsating with lots of shadows. I wished I hadn’t had a cortical chip as a complication, but I hoped it would go away. Because I had time on my hands (I was supposed to take it easy), I had the opportunity to update my blog. I decided to be creative and present a few images of the world as seen through my eyes. Continue reading →

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HOW SPECIAL YOU WERE

Posted on October 5, 2012 by Judy

It was eighteen years since I had last moved. My art studio held many areas for me to sort through. I dreaded the process of packing, and I found many excuses to put it off. Initially, it was excruciatingly difficult to tear myself away from working on my audio book and songs. I was so close to finishing everything. But packing was the only way I would be able to move forward so I could exit the tunnel I was in. Finally, I had to accept that I would not finish my book before moving. Continue reading →

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WHEN THE CLOSET IS BARE

Posted on October 1, 2012 by Judy

Lately, I was struggling because my door seemed overwhelming. With my eyesight compromised, everything was harder. Although I knew it was courageous, going through the front door to end my marriage was probably the biggest step I’d ever taken in my entire life. It was hard to be patient with my eyesight. It had been several months since I announced that I wanted to separate, and I was still sleeping in the same bed with my husband. I couldn’t think of moving until all of my eye surgeries were behind me. But once I went through my door, I would be leaving the pain behind that confronted and assaulted me on a daily basis. Continue reading →

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HELPING ME COPE, MY DREAM GIVES ME HOPE

Posted on September 19, 2012 by Judy

After today, it will be the end of one week coping with two different eyes. I have only 19 more days to go until my second eye surgery. Instead of being angry, I have decided that my husband actually did me a favor by pushing me to move out sooner and separate our money. I am not half blind. I am definitely strong and this is an opportunity for me to embrace it! I am not imagining myself running away anymore. Instead, I am preparing myself to board a big ship that will sail off to a beautiful and unknown destination. Continue reading →