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I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED

Posted on September 23, 2010 by Judy

The above post title is actually the name of one of my songs, which I have lyrics and chords for, but cannot remember the melody to. I plan to rediscover that melody soon. I like the concept of laughter and tears, because lately that’s just how I feel. My tears come very easily. I have been scanning a lot of old pictures, and reliving memories. Typing is difficult at the moment, but I am very good at denying pain.
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HEART-TORN LYRIC AND A STRUM

Posted on September 6, 2010 by Judy

I was under hypnosis. I was asked if there was a color to describe the sensation of longing, which I formerly termed an “ache.” I said, “I do not see colors – this longing is felt as a squeezing sensation; between my heart and my stomach. It forces me to play or hear music for relief. Instead of imagining a color, I’d rather hear music – especially soothing is my theme song, Farewell.” Continue reading →

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A DAUGHTER’S LOVE – PART 5

Posted on September 6, 2010 by Judy

This is Part 5 of my email excerpts. My mother was on a ventilator for almost two months starting in December of last year. I was her advocate and her support. The process was exhausting, and became the catalyst for an amazing transformation that occurred in me after my mom recovered. Toward the end of this section, my mom was doing well with the weaning process. She was being readied for transfer to a respiratory program at another hospital called Barlow. It was highly recommended. Unfortunately, her experience at Barlow turned out to be a nightmare. I watched her waste away as she lost 25 pounds in a very short time. Continue reading →

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NOW WE ARE OLDER

Posted on July 29, 2010 by Judy

“Only Tears” was the second to last song that I wrote, before I gave up my music for thirty years. The very last song that I wrote was the one I played at my own wedding, “Song of Joy.” It was for all of my wonderful friends that enriched my life before I got married. I’ve kept in touch with many of my childhood and college friends. Out of nowhere, came the inspiration for me to add another verse to this song. Continue reading →