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ALL MY LIFE I HAD HOPED YOU WOULD STAY

Sometime there were “certain moments” when she could hear her friend’s voice. Her friend’s voice was so recognizable and it was always comforting. Sometimes, her friend would even cackle as she did when they were young. The smile in her voice was like music, too. It was when her friend’s voice filled her mind, that it traveled straight to her heart and spread comfort throughout her body.
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LIFE AND DEATH ARE A MYSTERY

I have characterized my transformation from a year ago as one of going from being zombie-like to joyful. However, recently I realized that this was not the only transformation I have ever experienced. As a result of grief, I was forever changed. I have never delved into describing those changes before.
Although I am joyful, I am not at all innocent as I was before I suffered from grief. The horror of grief slaughtered my innocence and enlightened me about life and death. For me, the best way to share my feelings about life and death is by writing a parable. Continue reading

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I KNOW YOU’D TELL ME

I called my dad in the afternoon and he sounded terrible, but he said I had woken him up and that was why. When his nurse called me around dinnertime she told me what I expected; he needed to go immediately to the hospital. She said he was close to death. Continue reading

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I HOLD ON TO YOUR MEMORY

I didn’t drive down that particular street for many years. It was easier to avoid it. The memory of my dead child was too vivid whenever I saw those trees again. Even if they weren’t oak trees like my song lyrics, it didn’t matter. The memory had returned.
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