Tag Archives: GRIEF RELATED

THE PAIN YOU’LL JUST HAVE TO BEAR

My song was evolving. As much as I wanted to record it with George, yesterday, I had the clarity to know that improvements cannot be rushed. My song most definitely improved with some adjustments. Just to be honest; my mother still has the acuity and certainly is aware of our love. I also know the memory of it is not far off. That is because I tend to anticipate and project where things are heading. I know my words touch on something that many people can relate to. Continue reading

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I’VE SLOWLY WEPT

I described my symptoms to Connie. There was the tingling and numbness – I could manage with that. There was the stiffness, especially in the morning. That was very upsetting, because I couldn’t use my hands. But worst of all were the spasms. The pain was unbelievable, and it was always the same. It would awaken me in the early morning hours – just as I finally fell into a deep sleep. My fingers were hot, throbbing, and intensely aching. I would have to jump out of bed and dance around in the bathroom to search for any position that would alleviate the pain. Continue reading

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SONGWRITING 101 – PART 2

I am sharing what I have been writing. I’m sure it will evolve some more – good lyrics involve a lot of rewriting. The title isn’t set for me at all. I wasn’t sure if I should share something so “in progress.” However, I have written this blog as a window into my soul as an artist, writer, and musician. It is also a window that shares my heartache, and documents the challenges of being a wife, mother, and a daughter.
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I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPENED

The above post title is actually the name of one of my songs, which I have lyrics and chords for, but cannot remember the melody to. I plan to rediscover that melody soon. I like the concept of laughter and tears, because lately that’s just how I feel. My tears come very easily. I have been scanning a lot of old pictures, and reliving memories. Typing is difficult at the moment, but I am very good at denying pain.
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