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I LONG FOR YOU TO HOLD ME

Posted on July 13, 2011 by Judy

It was late at night. I worked on my song and incorporated the new chord Peaches had suggested. I rewrote the one lyric line to: Tthough I long for you to hold me, I need to set you free I tried and tried to sing my song. But I could not. Each time I tried to sing it, my throat closed up with tears and I was overcome with emotion. I finally allowed for up and out and put my guitar down so I could truly cry. Continue reading →

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LIFE AND DEATH ARE A MYSTERY

Posted on June 14, 2011 by Judy

I have characterized my transformation from a year ago as one of going from being zombie-like to joyful. However, recently I realized that this was not the only transformation I have ever experienced. As a result of grief, I was forever changed. I have never delved into describing those changes before.
Although I am joyful, I am not at all innocent as I was before I suffered from grief. The horror of grief slaughtered my innocence and enlightened me about life and death. For me, the best way to share my feelings about life and death is by writing a parable. Continue reading →

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I PICTURED YOUR SOUL SOARING FREE

Posted on May 27, 2011 by Judy

This morning when I woke up I felt you close by
I still heard your voice and my heart felt so full
But then I recalled all the things that had happened
The moment was gone dreaming you might be there
I opened my eyes and the anguish overwhelmed me
I closed them again and I pictured your soul soaring free . . .
It all seemed so real, it all seemed so real
Maybe it’s just that I wished it were real
All I could feel, all I could feel
Was pain when I realized your absence was real Continue reading →

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I HOLD ON TO YOUR MEMORY

Posted on May 12, 2011 by Judy

I didn’t drive down that particular street for many years. It was easier to avoid it. The memory of my dead child was too vivid whenever I saw those trees again. Even if they weren’t oak trees like my song lyrics, it didn’t matter. The memory had returned.
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