I WILL SHINE – PART 1

Judy playing with make up

When I made the decision to participate in a short video documentary about dry eyes, life became very exciting. Initially, I wasn’t sure I was up to doing it and had to get over feeling self-conscious about my appearance. Thankfully, I overcame my fears because I was very motivated to share my inspirational story.

I was paid for my time and that was important to me because it made the project legitimate. I had no idea a film crew of three people would be flying in from Virginia. I was glad that I would meet the producer, Jackie, whom I’d spoken with several times on the phone.

In this picture, I’m with Jackie, the producer

In this picture I’m with Jackie, the producer.

I was asked to choose someone to interact with who knew me well and my childhood friend, Joni, agreed to participate. A week before the filming, we went out shopping together. It was “girlfriend” time!

I’ve known Joni all my life. She lived in the same building where I grew up and am now living.

I’ve known Joni all my life. She lived in the same building where I grew up and am now living.

In order to wrap myself around the idea of being filmed, buying something new was really important. I worked hard at letting go of being self-conscious about my appearance. When we tried on clothes, my sizes were much larger than I wanted to think about. The sales lady and Joni were kind and encouraging.

After shopping, we had dinner and then I dragged Joni with me to an open mic I’d never gone to before.

Judy & Joni 1

This picture was taken after the crew finished the filming at my home.

The big day arrived and it was such a magical experience; I felt so important! Of course, it passed really quickly and was very much like being Cinderella. Sharing it with my friend, Joni was such a special memory.

I had lunch with both my brothers the day after the filming. They hadn’t spoken to each other for four years and with gentle coaxing and time, I had encouraged this reunion. I could write an entire story about it.

The day after our lunch, I broke out in hives. Before and after the film shoot, I had an argument with each one of my sons, and that also left me emotionally overwrought.

It was definitely a roller coaster week!

I was able to get a picture of the film crew just before they left.

I was able to get a picture of the film crew just before they left.

I love my vocal coach, Hannah Anders. I am able to share my feelings with her before I start singing!

Click the blue link below to hear audio: (A transcription is below)

Blog excerpt 6-30-16 – Judy discussing film shoot with Hannah

Hannah: Go!

Judy: Well I’m back to earth, I’m Cinderella – Now I’m back to being my usual!

Hannah: I experience that on a regular basis.

Judy: Do you? That must be part of what it is – especially with the whole make up thing and the audience sees you as somebody you’re not, somebody else. I had a hive outbreak this morning so I’m itching, damn. That part is hard.

Hannah: I know . . .

Judy: It was wonderful and exhausting. They showed up to start the whole thing at 7 a.m. It was very interesting because I knew it was about dry eyes but they were really focused on my music. To me that’s the best thing in the world!

I went in my closet and dug out all my old artwork and I put it all on a table. I thought I’d make it look like I’m working on something. I took out my paints and made this whole display. And they said, “We’re not interested in your artwork. We just want the story to be how music helped to heal you!”

Hannah: That’s great!

Judy: It was great. They started off with saying, “Where’s your guitar case – the dusty old one? We want to reenact how you started playing guitar again. Let’s put it back in the closet and have you walk over, pull it out and look like you’re playing again – and it hurts.”

I had to be like a little actress!

Hannah: How awesome!

Judy: It was so awesome.

Hannah: Was it fun?

Judy: It was fun! It was fun watching them take interesting angles of my guitar. It was like having your baby photographed. We want more of this guitar and I’m like, “Okay!”

And then my friend, Joni, came over and they had us talk and walk across the street, while following us. People were jogging by and looking at this camera crew following my friend and I thought, “Oh, my God – who am I?”

Hannah: I love it!

Judy: I did love it! I mean the harder part was that it was hot and when I got back it was time for the interview using my brainpower. There were lots of questions – they didn’t really guide me; they gave me a list.

I’d be talking away and think, Oh, I’d better look down at my list and then try to make it sound natural. My friend would say, “Judy, when did your eye problems begin?” She was going from her list. And I’d say, “My eye problems began . . .”

So I talked a lot. I think after a while I started to repeat myself. What gets me is that all this footage and recordings are going to be reduced to 10 minutes and they took 90 minutes of speaking and 6 hours of video.

It was nice when they left that I was able to rest. I got up and wrote to a friend and said, “I’m in a show tonight and I know I could have my hair and makeup done professionally, but I don’t know . . .”

She said, “GO! Do it!!”

Hannah: Yeah! I’m so glad you did; you looked so pretty!

Judy: Really?

Hannah: Yes!

Judy: It was so strange – my hair was all poufy and when I got there, I could see the mascara was all over. I was weepy and my eyes water a lot, so I kept wiping and worrying. But it was great to be somebody else for a day.

Hannah: Yeah!

Judy: And you know what? Now I’ve got to share; it was my best performance. I know there’s no perfection and I had one stumble with my lyrics. But honestly, my voice – what a change! I can’t say enough about how that conversational approach worked. I got all the high notes and I got all the low notes, so what more could I want? It was probably one of my best performances ever.

Hannah: I’m so glad!

Judy: Thank you!

Hannah: Yay! That’s very exciting! Good, so when will they have all that edited and put together for you?

Judy: In a month.

Hannah: Okay, that’s not long.

Judy: That’s what they told me; I don’t know. They want me to send them some of my instrumental stuff and things they might put in the background. I mean that would be really cool if they can use my music in it.

Hannah: Absolutely!

Judy: Yeah. I don’t want to be let down by things they might omit or put in that could be misconstrued; when things are edited, you don’t know. But I’ll hope for the best.

There were a lot of close-ups. Especially after my performance when my makeup was all smeared and I was hot.

But you know what’s interesting? All that dialog was about what I struggle with, but I don’t know that I had any scenes of what I go through – rubbing my eyes. I wore dark sunglasses outside, but they kept saying, “Now we want you to look serious.” (Judy laughing) I’m trying!

But when they said I could smile, I felt like a light bulb. So I think it will be very inspirational to see my smile.

Hannah: Good! Yay!

Judy: Yay!

Judy & Joni outside Kulak's 2 pictures Judy made up

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About Judy

I'm an illustrator by profession. At this juncture in my life, I am pursuing my dream of writing and composing music. Every day of my life is precious!
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14 Responses to I WILL SHINE – PART 1

  1. jmgoyder says:

    You are one hell of an amazing woman!

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  2. Norm Goodman says:

    That was so fun to read!!!

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    • Judy says:

      Ah, Norm! You made my day. It was fun. And it was Miriam who encouraged me to get “made up.” It sure will be exciting to see the video once it’s released! Love you lots and lots. What a big week. Seeing you and Howard for lunch was just as big to me!

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  3. Keep shining Judy!

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  4. Belinda O says:

    You look beautiful! One thing I know from having worked in video production — the producer has been given a message to communicate, and your story is being used to communicate someone else’s message. So the things they may highlight may surprise you, because they aren’t key to your story, your message. But that’s okay, because it’s sometimes the smallest detail in our lives, the one we hardly think matters, that can change someone else’s life. That crew looked kind and professional, so I don’t think you have anything to worry about!

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    • Judy says:

      I think you’re 100% right, Belinda. I almost felt silly for thinking about that. To be honest, I’m more shy and wondering if I’ll look fat in the pictures. Hate to even write that! But my story is all about having courage and willingness to overcome challenges. I feel very great that I was able to communicate my story. How they shape it will be interesting. Thank you so much for your compliment. That’s very cool that you worked in video production. I imagine you were fantastic at it as you are a wonderful communicator yourself. 🙂

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      • Belinda O says:

        Don’t feel silly. It’s very possible you’ll be surprised by how they shape your story and may not like it, but I doubt it will be Bad. More like, that’s not how I see it! Then you’ll watch it again and realize it’s not that different after all, just presented differently, maybe focusing on something you never think much about.

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      • Judy says:

        I know you’re right. Because it was financed by a medical company, it will definitely have a spin in a medical direction – although they really were interested in my music and healing message. When the video comes out, I’d love to know how you see it. Thanks so much for commenting in such a thought provoking way. Because of your background, I admire you even more!

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  5. beebeesworld says:

    hi, Judy, thanks for reading this beebee blog and my fb page too. You are so strong and inspiring!

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    • Judy says:

      Oh, Brenda – you made my night. I do think it’s wonderful how we can support each other. That was fascinating that you found out your cat was a male! I can’t imagine how weird that was. I’m glad I could be strong and inspiring. So often I feel like I’m very human, weak and struggling. But I do love to share my own pep-talk with everyone else!

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  6. beebeesworld says:

    Everything you do seems to be done with such strength and courage. You have accomplished so much even after great loss. I admire that – it is an inspiration. Keep up the great work! beebee brenda

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    • Judy says:

      Thank you so much, Brenda. I feel so lucky to have you as my friend. You also have gone through so much. Just surviving the heartbreak of losing our beloved sons represents strength. I feel the same way about you.

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