My post title is a lyric line from my song “In The Past.” At the end, I’m going to share a recent performance of this song that I’m very proud of.
Since it’s a new year, I’d like to take one last look back at 2016. My vocal coach, Hannah Anders asked me what my accomplishments were last year. I didn’t realize how much progress I made. During our lesson, we also came up with new goals for me in 2017.
There were two things I forgot to mention to Hannah:
I created 29 illustrations and I released five music CD’s!
Below is a recording and transcription from my voice lesson last week. Click the link below to hear audio:
HANNAH: We’re going to start with, what you feel were your best accomplishments in 2016. And this can be obviously singing, music, personal goals, personal accomplishments, and professional accomplishments – so this can be anything.
JUDY: Well, music comes to my mind because that’s why I come here. So I’ll go to that accomplishment. I guess I was just thinking of this recent performance. Reliability. When I came to you, I had this nervous feeling that I couldn’t rely on my voice. I didn’t know if I’d have a good performance or not. I mean I still have a little picky pitch issue here and there.
HANNAH: That’s okay.
JUDY: But what a difference! I think 90% of my performances now I’m putting on YouTube.
HANNAH: That’s so awesome.
JUDY: I could make less guitar mistakes, but that’s just practice.
HANNAH: That’s being human!
JUDY: I was just thinking about my journey. I was thinking about how it leads you to places you’d never imagine. I suffered with my dry eyes for four years. And I came to you – it was just a stroke of luck that I was calling around trying to find another recording studio. And because of you, I found Dr. Wang.
And it was because of Dr. Wang that I did the coconut oil and my eyes got better. Is that not a life-changing moment?
HANNAH: It’s huge!
JUDY: It’s so huge. I was just thinking today that I haven’t had the writing bug and I’m just getting a flash about what I could write about. Healing. Healing is not objective – it’s really subjective and I’ve decided that I’m healed. Doctors told me, “It’s incurable and people never get better.” That’s what I’ve heard. If I want to, I can feel that I have dry eyes some days – I do. But I don’t go to that place. I go to the place that I’ve healed from the suffering and I have a life back. Same thing with grief.
HANNAH: That’s huge. When you started your eyes were one of the reasons we had short lessons, one of the reasons you were afraid about seminar. You asked, “Is it okay if I need to step out?”
JUDY: I was in too much pain to be with people.
HANNAH: And look at you. You’re a different person.
JUDY: I know.
HANNAH: That’s awesome. All right, what else?
JUDY: Well, you know I got my health back. I lost weight. It was really hard to get my mind in gear. That was the hardest part. Doing it wasn’t as hard as getting there.
HANNAH: That’s the truth. Once you’re in the zone it’s easy.
JUDY: It’s getting the key to let yourself out of the prison.
HANNAH: That’s right.
JUDY: And the key is really the mindset; love is the mindset. And courage. I went to find myself a new arranger. That wasn’t easy for me – even on-line dating.
HANNAH: I know!
JUDY: Which hasn’t let to anything yet. It’s funny.
HANNAH: But it will. Arranger – I’m going to write that down. You took a vacation.
JUDY: Oh yeah, that took courage. There we go again. Everything is tied together.
JUDY: Healing allowed me to feel better, to have the courage and then to act on it.
HANNAH: You went on vacation and stayed on your diet.
HANNAH: They featured you on that dry eye video.
JUDY: Yes! This is really funny. The name of it was “Turning Point.” And wasn’t it a turning point? I said to them, “Are you sure you want me? Because I’m not healed.”
And then, of course, at the very end of the video I say, “I think good things are ahead for me.”
HANNAH: That’s right!
JUDY: And my audio book possibility.
HANNAH: It was a good year. You got a lot done last year.
JUDY: I sure did. I didn’t realize it until you had me recite everything.
HANNAH: That’s why we do that.
JUDY: I love it!