YOU FLEW AWAY

Jason with Freckles

This past weekend I wrote a new song. It will be named “Angel in the Sky.”

My new song has caused me to be quite weepy. Lately, I cry easily and my emotional state has been affected by thinking of Tersia, my new friend in the blogosphere and her dying daughter.

I have no judgment about the tears that birthed this special creation. The process of composing a song is like nothing else and I look forward to sharing it soon.

 

For several months, I have immersed myself in grief. I read other peoples’ sad words and then I write optimistic messages to them. A few weeks ago, I wrote these words on one of my posts: “I absorbed their pain.”

 

There was no question that my heart was aching when I wrote that. Was I really helping other people with my optimism or bringing myself back into my former sad world?

 

I’ve written many times that the amputation of my soul was a permanent condition. And I’ve also said that grief is not recoverable.

 

Such a contradiction to announce that I have healed!

 

Last week, I delved into this inner conflict during my hypnotherapy session. I decided that I wasn’t actually absorbing other peoples’ pain. The circumstances of others simply triggered my own grief and sadness. I was drawn to it.

 

So in order to be more consistent, from now on I am going to say that, “I’m still healing,” instead of saying, “I have healed.”

 

Grief is a process. It will follow me for the rest of my life.

Butterfly-Morpho

This picture was taken shortly before Jason died.

This picture was taken shortly before Jason died on his fifth birthday.

You flew away

I miss you so

In the sky 1

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About Judy

I'm an illustrator by profession. At this juncture in my life, I am pursuing my dream of writing and composing music. Every day of my life is precious!
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4 Responses to YOU FLEW AWAY

  1. jmgoyder says:

    I think you are absolutely amazing. I haven’t listened to the clips yet but I will. The heat here makes my computer slow.

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    • Judy says:

      Thank you, Julie. My journey has become much more beautiful for me because of all the wonderful people I’ve met along the way. I think singing is a parallel to other parts of my life. It is about opening up and finding what resonates. About having courage and going for it! I am hoping that someday, my new teacher Kimberly might even sing one of my songs. Who knows? I like added excitement in my life. It sure doesn’t happen without actively seeking it and I’m glad that I called her. Thank you again for joining my journey. I look forward to sharing my new song with you also.

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  2. Luna Ulric-Taylor says:

    Brave woman, you are!

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  3. tersiaburger says:

    Brave woman and very talented!!

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