Tag Archives: grief bereavement “Loss of a Child”
I CAN’T EXPRESS WHAT IS NOT REAL
I am still on my journey. Perhaps I will continue to write for the rest of my life. But “my journey’s insight” seems is definitely something finite and very special time for me. Lately, I have been living my life quite intensely; there’s been no doubt about that. That is probably because I have felt there is a deadline for me; I’ve had a premonition that something will derail me from finishing my mission, which is to record all my songs.
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SEEMS LIKE MY WHOLE LIFE I’VE WAITED
So today it has suddenly occurred to me that tomorrow is Jason’s Yarzeit. In two days, I will be performing at our temple my emotional song for him in front of a lot of people. I took my children to a family service a few times, and managed to get through it. This Saturday would be the first time in twenty-five years that I attended an adult service on this holiday. I’ve felt spiritual lately, and reborn. My voice and my soul are very connected. Although there is no guarantee I won’t make a mistake, I’ve decided I’m human and I’ll simply do the best I can when I play my song.
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ALL MY LIFE NEVER PREPARED ME
There was another tape still left – it was from Jason’s funeral. When Jason died, the funeral was scheduled two days later. I wanted to say something, but decided it would be far too difficult to speak at my child’s funeral. Instead, I made a speech on a cassette, which was played to a hushed audience in a crowded chapel. Continue reading →
WHEN YOU’VE LEFT, YOU’LL STILL BE WITH ME
At this time in my life, I have been reconnecting with many old friends. I began writing in February, and one of my first posts was about tennis (Post #8). This story is a follow up about my experience of losing one of my good tennis friends, Linda. Continue reading →







