THAT MOMENT WHEN

People often comment to me about my smile. I have always found it easy to smile and since I rediscovered my passion for music, I am bursting with joy from within.

I also like to look at my life as an adventure. It gives me the openness to try new things and to view anything scary as something worth overcoming.

I recently came back from touring Utah. It was definitely an adventure for me!

Next week, I am going to embark upon an adventure because I am having one of my songs filmed for a music video. It is truly a dream come true and nothing I ever imagined I’d be doing at the age of 58!

When I began playing my guitar again eight years ago, it was due to my good friend, Joni. She remembered how I had played in high school and encouraged me to play again. And how interesting it was that her two sons, David and Shimmy had recently started producing music videos. For a few years before that they had been producing commercials.

She connected me with them and I was intrigued by the idea that I could actually create a music video for one of my songs. I met with the creative team and was impressed with how professional everyone was. This was becoming a lot of fun for me!

David would direct the video and it would be filmed by Shimmy. Shimmy’s wife, Donna, added wonderful creative input. The obvious question they asked me was which one of my songs did I want made into a music video?

It wasn’t easy for me to pick my favorite song.

I sent a folder of recordings over to David. I narrowed down my choices to five songs. David listened to them and told me there was a favorite one – it was so sweet that it even made him teary. I tried to guess which song, but I couldn’t.

When he told me it was “Crystal Oceans,” I grinned from ear to ear – I never considered my love song to be that touching. But I did love the title and it certainly conjured up lovely imagery.

(Link to more about “Crystal Oceans” https://myjourneysinsight.com/crystal-oceans/)

It was so long ago when I composed my song as a 17-year-old girl dreaming of romance. How would anyone relate to my song since I’m a lot older now?

David reassured me that my song would work just fine. Actors could play out the song’s story. This was sounding more and more exciting. When I received his detailed script and shot list I almost fell out of my chair.

There would be a young Judy. And a handsome young man would portray the guy with crystal blue eyes running down the beach. Young Judy would be penning lyrics in her bedroom as she imagined him taking her by the hand. They would frolic in the tide and fall in love.

But older Judy (ME!) would also be in the video. David loved the image of me sailing on a boat. It held beautiful metaphors; I was setting my sites on the horizon as I calmly sailed across the sea to an unknown destination.

My lyrics for Crystal Oceans evolved over time. David didn’t know that my verse about sailing was only written six months ago. It definitely added more to my song’s story and I was ecstatic that everything had come together for my song in such a profound way.

But it was Donna, Shimmy’s wife who had a surprising idea. She said everyone loved happy endings. My video would close out with the image of a handsome older man holding me as I sailed across crystal blue seas at the end of the video. He was the older version of the young handsome man I longed for at the beginning of my song.

My post title of “That Moment When” is a line from “Crystal Oceans.” Sometimes, it becomes clear when there is a moment that changes everything.

Throughout my life, I’ve experienced that. Sometimes it is with hindsight that I’ve realized something minor was actually something very significant.

Originally “Crystal Oceans” was about my dream that a handsome young man would take my hand, but there was also that moment when I allowed music into my heart again after years and years of grief.

When I started to play music again after 30 years, I had many responsibilities and chores to do. But there I was sitting alone in my darkened bedroom and I never imagined what it would lead to; that my life would completely change after that.

At the age of 17, I loved singing the melody to “Crystal Oceans.” I even used la la la’s to fill in my song because it didn’t have verses. The catchy tune was one I never forgot, even after 3 decades.

Then In 2011, I was on a vacation with my family and decided to expand my song. I sat in the bathroom to write the verse lyrics and melody. It was very challenging to imagine romance because I was lonely at the time and very much devoted to my family. But as a songwriter, dreaming and imagining lifted me right out of my stressful life and was magical.

Last year, I recorded a new version of “Crystal Oceans.” I decided my song could benefit by adding one more verse. I was still married when I wrote the verse lyrics in 2011, but now I was divorced. What could I come up with? My new verse became:

In my dreams on crystal blue seas, you and I are sailing on an ocean breeze . . .

David’s script involved a sailboat and the rental was secured. Two months ago, I enjoyed watching the screen tests and the actors that were chosen were wonderful. I had to admit that I was a little nervous about filming the ending to my video in a romantic way with a total stranger.

I’ve thought a lot about my video ending with the illusion that I had an enduring relationship with the blue-eyed young man. If I chose to, I could be sad and mourn that I did not experience what I had dreamed of as a young girl.

But I’ve had many other dreams come true and there are many more to come. “Crystal Oceans” is all about dreaming and possibilities. Just because I’m older – well, it hasn’t ended for me.

I am on an adventure where anything is possible!

About Judy

I'm an illustrator by profession. At this juncture in my life, I am pursuing my dream of writing and composing music. Every day of my life is precious!
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16 Responses to THAT MOMENT WHEN

  1. K E Garland says:

    Judy, your song and voice are beautiful!

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    • Judy says:

      Aw, Katherin, I am so honored by your words!!! Thank you for listening and for your compliments. Singing is pretty open and vulnerable. At my age, it takes courage and I’m proud that I’ve been able to open my heart to do this. Your comment is my fuel and keeps me going!!! >

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  2. Janet Fattal says:

    So exciting to watch you embark on new adventures. Can’t wait to see the finished product.

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    • Judy says:

      Thanks, my dear friend. You have held my hand through every step of my writing and I am beaming to share so much with you. It’s very exciting and of course, I will share with you every detail. This whole video thing will definitely be an adventure! Love you!

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  3. I adore you beautiful Judy, your music , your heart, your story, your healing, your genuine passion to smile and give back joy you so beautifully found on your journey through loss. You always inspire me and I absolutely am blessed to know you and to love you dear friend. IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FLIPPIN EXCITED FOR YOUR VIDEO…..screaming and jumping up and down with hurrrays of joy. Im also glad I just found you on wordpress lol

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    • Judy says:

      Aw, when I saw your message and comment it made my heart sing, Kerri. I am so blessed by your enthusiasm and love. Thank you!!! Of course I will continue to share with you. I just love the whole idea that this is something other than grief. It is a shining light of fun and adventure – it’s just wonderful to have you sharing the light with me!!!

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  4. jmgoyder says:

    Love it and love you!

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    • Judy says:

      I love you, too, my friend and am happy to share something a bit different than my usual grief and healing. This is definitely a foray into the unknown! All fun and good for me, though. 🙂 >

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  5. So excited for you! It must be amazing to have your music and lyrics come to life in a video.

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  6. Joni Lautman says:

    I can’t wait!! I’m happy for you that you’ll be in your own music video! A dream come true!! Our friendship spans many horizons. I’m thankful you have been in my life; my wish for you is to have all the tender loving warm feelings you put out into the world come back to you!! Crystal 🌊 Oceans here we come!!

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    • Judy says:

      Aw, Joni! Thank you so much for this lovely message. I’m thrilled sharing my joy with you and I’ll never forget your coming over to help me pick out my outfit. Still working on it lol! It doesn’t seem that long ago when we had our other video shoot! Wow, another great one where you’re such a part of my life. I love you!

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