Between the ages of sixteen and twenty-one, I wrote at least thirty songs. When I remember the musical years of my youth, I have clear and intense sensations of joy.
I know that it is hard for me to admit that for the last thirty years I did not experience that kind of joy. I assumed it was in the past and “over” for me.
I was such a different person when I devoted myself to being an artist and raising my children. I experienced many other emotions; perhaps “satisfaction” is descriptive of how I felt about my career. I certainly felt immense love for my family.
It has been difficult for them to adjust to my “new personality.” Now I spend a lot more time indulging my passions and not taking care of them. For such a long time, I was very good at taking care of a lot of people!
Today, the new person that I am had an adventure. I am pleased to share that I had a joyful memory that reminded me of my youth. I felt like I was twenty years old again!
At dinner tonight, my husband and family regaled in hearing me describe today’s adventure. I am proud to say I went on a “mushroom hunting expedition,” and I am still alive after eating those delicious chanterelles!
With the writing of my blog, “My Journey’s Insight” I have rediscovered many wonderful friendships. My college friend, Carol (#200), and my childhood friend, Joni (#213) met me this morning at my mother’s nursing facility to embark on our adventure.
Before we left, it was interesting for my mother to see my two good friends – especially Carol after so many years. Both Carol and Joni had joined me separately on family vacations, and we had a lot of wonderful memories.My mother had excellent long-term memory this morning. She remembered that Carol had dated my ex-boyfriend Sam!
When Carol first suggested hiking to me, I was enthused. When I am outdoors I am always mesmerized by the colors and textures that surround me. I love the aromas also and that alone can trigger wonderful memories for me from childhood.