It’s Not Forever Arrangement Medley

This medley holds arrangements of these three songs: It’s Not Forever, Wonder Why and Somewhere I Can’t See. The links under the lyrics lead to another page with stories, performances and recordings with vocals.

I wrote this song in 2015 to encourage hope of healing from grief. At that time, I was struggling with chronic pain from dry eyes. My own lyrics inspired hope for me. Eventually I healed and was very grateful I had maintained my positive outlook.

You say your pain will always be there and every day is a nightmare I remember so well living with that kind of hell It’s not forever It feels like it’s never going to change I once felt that way Today I see, hope carried me After he left, your life was shattered; he was all that mattered When life seems unreal, it’s hard to imagine you could heal It’s not forever It feels like it’s never going to change Time could not sever my love Today I see, love carried me A long time ago, I felt hopeless but I know It’s not forever It feels like it’s never going to change Time could not sever my love Today I see, you carried me Link to recordings and other stories: IT’S NOT FOREVER

Written in 2014, my lyrics express doubt toward God as I wonder why there is so much suffering in the world. The verse melody and chords were written when I was 18; this was originally a breakup song.

I’m thankful for life but I’ve lived with grief Although I am hopeful, I long for belief I wish there’s a way you could explain Why life holds so much pain I look at the mountains into the blue sky I wish somehow I could fly Away from sadness, torture and madness As I cry, I wonder – why? Life can be sweet, we hope and we dream ‘til tragedy leaves us to scream Diseases and death, lives are destroyed Prayer vanishes into that void I look at the mountains into the blue sky Searching for answers before I die For those who suffer, the road is much tougher As I cry, I wonder – why? God, I want to believe in you I just wish I knew So much of life seems so unfair People are broken and filled with despair I look at the mountains into the blue sky My doubt is something I cannot deny If it was planned, I don’t understand God I cry and wonder – why? Link to recordings and other stories: WONDER WHY

In 2013, I was coping with the loss of both my parents and this song helped me feel their love. Even though I couldn’t see them, I was determined not to “drown in misery.” Ironically, during the time I wrote this song I was dealing with dry eyes and had a lot of trouble opening my eyes.

Everything that I have gone through led me to this place Even though my heart’s been broken with all I’ve had to face I will shine through my pain, even in darkness I refuse to give in to bitterness A fire once burned through my soul, it left me scarred and sad My tears could easily fill an ocean, but love was what I had I didn’t want losing you to tear me apart I was blessed to be healed Your love filled my heart I hold on to love that’s in my memory You’re not gone; you’re somewhere I can’t see I won’t drown in misery ‘cause your love rescues me Your love rescues me Every challenge just reminds me hold on to each day No matter where my journey leads me, love will guide my way I will climb through the clouds up into the sky With every beat and every breath I’ll love until I die I hold on to the love that heals me You’re not gone; you’re somewhere I can’t see I won’t drown in misery ‘cause your love rescues me Your love rescues me, rescues me Link to recordings and other stories: SOMEWHERE I CAN’T SEE