Every Season – Guitar Instrumental Medley for Insight Timer

This medley holds guitar instrumentals for these five songs: Every Season, In Every Smile, Memory of Love, It’s Not Forever and Set You Free.

The links to stories about my songs include recordings with vocals.

This was a guitar instrumental and my first new song written after 30 years without music in my life. Eventually, I wrote lyrics to express my grief with the passage of the seasons. My song was very healing for me.

EVERY SEASON

You always return on an April breeze

With fragrance of jasmine and crimson oak trees

The seasons, they just move go on

And my mind knows that you’re gone

With autumn’s cold you never grow old

With winter’s chill I miss you still

As the season changes my heart rearranges

 

When you left I always knew

Forever I’d long for you, but I’ve held on to your memory

And my sadness will always be

Every season you come back to me

 

You always return with a starry night sky

A warm, golden sunrise; a bright butterfly

I’m reminded you are free for all eternity

When fall would come, for years I was numb

My tears fell like rain, but spring thawed my pain

As the seasons go by, the memories don’t die

 

When you left, from life I withdrew

And a piece of my soul died, too

Life and death are a mystery

And my sadness will always be

Every season you come back to me

 

Story behind EVERY SEASON-PART 1

Story behind EVERY SEASON-PART 2

In Every Smile

This song composed in 2015 was a tribute to my children, but like many of my songs related to grief – it helped me personally. I could hear my own parents telling me, “I’m not really gone, when my love lives on.”

IN EVERY SMILE

One day I’ll be gone but love cannot leave

I’ll be right there beside you, can you believe?

if you’re crying ‘cause you miss me

and feel you’ve lost your way

You know what I’d say . . .

 

See me in every smile

it’s okay to cry awhile

But smiling can lift you up

Feel me with love you share

in your heart I’m there

I’m not really gone when my love lives on

 

Remember the warmth, your heart next to mine

I’ll still be hugging you in warm sunshine

When storm clouds overtake you

and everything seems gray

You know what I’d say . . .

 

See me in every smile

it’s okay to cry awhile

But laughter can lift you up

Feel me with every touch

I loved you so much

I’m not really gone when my love lives on

 

You might be scared and think you’re alone

Let my light surround you, the love you’ve known

From the moment I first held you until I had to go,

I hope you know

You’ll see me in every smile

it’s okay to cry awhile

But my love can lift you up

Feel me with love you share; in your heart I’m there

I’m not really gone when my love lives on

When my love lives on

 

Story behind IN EVERY SMILE

Memory of love

I composed this song in 2011 to express my sadness over losing my mother gradually to dementia. But my loneliness also extended to my marriage, unbeknownst to me at the time I wrote it.

MEMORY OF LOVE

How can I tell you, I’m sad you’re leaving me?

I miss the way you used to be

I’ve lost you somewhere

I’m lonely and I cannot share

I can’t tell you, so instead I just pretend

it’s easier that way than to face the end

I’ve tried so hard to accept

as you fade away, I’ve slowly wept

 

I feel, I sense, there’s so much fear

I try to be brave, as you disappear from here

 

I cannot see you,

you’ve become transparent

I ache and wonder where you went

I know you can’t hear my cries

with deaf ears and vacant eyes

 

I pray, I wish, you were aware

but when I feel despair

the memory of love is there

Even though you’re not aware

the memory of love is always there

 

Story behind MEMORY OF LOVE-PART 1

Story behind MEMORY OF LOVE-PART 2

Story behind MEMORY OF LOVE-PART 3

For this song, I share my feelings that my suffering over grief wasn’t forever, but love certainly is.

IT’S NOT FOREVER

You say your pain will always be there

and every day is a nightmare

I remember so well

Living with that kind of hell

 

It’s not forever

It feels like it’s never going to change

I once felt that way

Today I see

Hope carried me

 

After he left, your life was shattered

he was all that mattered

When life seems unreal

It’s hard to imagine you could heal

 

It’s not forever

It feels like it’s never going to change

Time could not sever my love

Today I see

Love carried me

 

A long time ago

I felt hopeless

but I know

 

It’s not forever

It feels like it’s never going to change

Time could not sever my love

Today I see you carried me

 

Story behind IT’S NOT FOREVER-PART 1

Story behind IT’S NOT FOREVER-PART 2

Story behind IT’S NOT FOREVER-PART 3

I am grateful every day, that I was able to set myself free from grief. I wrote this song when my father was dying, but it applies to many other losses in my life.

SET YOU FREE

 

You’re hanging on as night turns to dawn

I know you can’t stay and soon you’ll be gone

we both know it’s hard to let go;

wherever you are my love won’t be far

 

your smile, your touch, your voice, your face;

your essence I will never replace

though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free

 

There is no fear and your leaving is clear

we’ll still have our love it remains with each tear

I cry as you leave, though I truly believe

as you leave my sight we’ll both be all right

 

your smile, your touch, your voice, your face;

your essence I will never replace

though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free

 

though you have flown to somewhere unknown

we’re never apart; you’re here in my heart

your smile, your touch, your voice, your face;

your essence I will never replace

though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free

though I long for you to hold me; I need to set you free

 

 Story behind SET YOU FREE-PART 1

Story behind SET YOU FREE-PART 2

Story behind SET YOU FREE-PART 3